The Fed Up Kid

2006-07-29T03:16:00.000+08:00

i still do have feelings for you.

but i know it's not gonna happen the way i want it to.

switched

2006-07-23T04:22:00.000+08:00

just got home not too long ago. went to have some drinks at CHIPS earlier in the evening and caught NACHO LIBRE after that. Well, i should say it's a LAME-FUNNY show and a lousy ending. its a waste of money for that show. aghr.
it's so much convenient now when i'm staying at Clem. Missed the old times with my neighbourhood friends, the chills and late night teh tarik-chit-chat with my neightbours. After One year of boredom at Blue Horizon, i can finally hang out with them again. Thank God for everything.

Shirleen, are you happy now that i'm back at clem? haha. Like finally i can teach you guitars and you can play like michelle branch in future. :D

*somehow i've got a feeling you're drifting away. Please don't, I know i can't be part of your life but if same goes for best friends then i've got nothing to say and do about it. Honestly, i've never felt so pushed-forward before even though i've been turned down many times. Take care my beloved friend.
I will still be around to take care of you.

Home Sweet Home

2006-07-22T03:40:00.000+08:00

Finally i've moved back to my so called HOME. There are still tons of stuff to unpack and clean up, i guess it'll be done by end of this month, i hope.

It's been almost half a year that we didn't rock out together. Bloods, let's continue our journey.. looking forward to our EP.

*I don't see a point why we need to keep a distance between us.
why are you afraid of people's point of view?
I don't get it. Maybe i'm just not up to your standard?

all i can do is leave.

Baybeats Day 01

2006-07-15T04:30:00.000+08:00

Baybeats 2006 - I still prefered the lines up for last year, i guess this year gonna tone down a little..

Day 01 :

West Grand Boulevard - They did a pretty good set for everyone, really good. So much better than Dead End? HAHA. Nice set guys.

Nothing to Declare - The vocal/guitarist sounded like Masashi to me. Music influences from Ax7..etc.

Love Me Butch - POWER. Although they had their drummer replaced.. they still had it GOING ON. Especially the vocal's scream, delayed. but still, their previous set was a KILLER.

Alright, i've met up with lotsa of my old uncontacted friends at there. Isn't it great.Met up with Russule, kinda sad that he sold his TW-fatdonut away.

Bumped into Guntur, my ex-band member. It's been a long time since we met each other man, good to see him around. Ashes From Beneath, we will back soon! whoooho.

That's it for tonight, shall continue tml!
Hope You are doing fine, i miss you.

Lomographical

2006-07-11T00:44:00.000+08:00

It's time to SNAP SNAP SNAP !

distance is what you wanted?
okay, i'll give it to you then.

2006-07-06T04:52:00.000+08:00

This picture has lotsa memories in it, i hope you remembered.

The first time we drank together
The day i started to fall for you
The day i looked into you

Honestly, i miss you as a friend.

Stolen

2006-07-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

You watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glamour have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart

Invitation only grant farewells
Crush the best one, of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight

And from the bar room floor we are a celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we are, we'll sleep well

You have stolen
You have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around in the highest heels
You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel

Buddhistson - Pupil

2006-07-03T21:49:00.000+08:00

the first july

2006-06-30T04:44:00.000+08:00

i know it's weird to see me post at this hour. My mind couldn't stop thinking after what i heard from my you just now. I really hope that you really think about what i said, i don't want your life to change for the worse.

Whatever i said to you is because i'm concern and i care for you as a friend, take my advise seriously.
Don't regret at the last minute though i can't force or make the decision for you.. Be matured for once, please.

it's gonna be sad to see you drift away..

turn off the bright lights

2006-06-26T01:33:00.000+08:00

well, seems to me that everythings changing real fast. But i really don't know whether is it a good sign or bad? From what i see, i'm having so many doubts.. that's sad isn't it?

Why do i keep having dreams about you? My mind is telling not to, but my heart seems to want it. A feeling which will cause me deep down, i will not bring you down. Distance should help out in this situation. I shall not let the past repeat itself again. I'm sorry.

I don't feel right here, what do i mean? simple, cut my wrist and watch me feed on blood.

seeking for nowhere.

home

2006-06-20T02:55:00.000+08:00

when was the last time i updated this blog? okay, a month or so. Been really busy with lotsa stuff. It's really nice to have a short holiday now, so much time to settle down everything and reschedule my stuff. woah. thank God.

I just bought Concave Scream, HORIZONS.
Yes, I've been a fan of them ever since they released their second album. They are good, i like the way they make full use of all their pedals.

Especially the DELAYS.
5 STARS.
Track 6 - GO *One of my fav. song among the rest. The delays..... The chorous.... The Tempo.....

its all over

2006-05-22T19:39:00.000+08:00

Finally, the big walk event is over. I'm glad that we won the fanciest and happening group of all. yay. Prizes are good man.

Drowning in my sea

2006-05-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

UnderOATH

pin myself

2006-05-17T01:24:00.000+08:00

Such a busy and tiring day. went straight to work right after school, finished up half my robot painting already. there's still so much more to do.

BEE Robot

Clown Robot (Mine)

busy bee

2006-05-15T00:45:00.000+08:00

wassup there, been really busy for the past days. specially work, rushing up my so called "robot" for the coming Big Walk event! and yesh, we're running out of time, still have few more robots to build! gosh, dealing with one is really terrible.. can't imagine we have to rush to do 5-7 more robots!

alright peeps, gotta get some sleep soon.
i have to report to a place where all kids read thick books with a adult talking to us.

black and white story about a rocking chair

2006-05-10T00:57:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps, sorry for the lack of updates yah. i've been quite busy recently, didn't have the time for any updates.

well, life's seems to be alright. Rushy, i guess.

My friends, the catchy tunes and chords are all ready and planned.
it's time to hit the studios once again.

Line6-Echo Park, simply love it.

Milkman and the Pyschotic craver.

2006-05-10T00:22:00.000+08:00

you will think that i'm nuts, but i find it funny.

MILKMAN

underOATH

2006-05-03T02:11:00.000+08:00

Define the Great Line
check them out, Underoath.

God has blessed them with such great talents to make wonderful music....

crack lines in blank walls

2006-04-26T18:49:00.000+08:00

seems like things have changed so much in such a short period of time,i hope this just a temporary cold feeling. i've regretted, but there's no turning back. Life still goes on. ...

"Hold her in your right hand.
And guide her safely home.
Brush away all the thorns.
Find all the stones.
You're my angel without wings.
When i was crying you never left my side.
When i was dying you never left my side.
You're always there for me.
You're my angel without wings.
You were always without wings.
Without wings."

All i do is.. leaving

2006-04-08T10:17:00.000+08:00

it felt like i'm not going to wake up from my long hours of sleep
it felt like i'm left alone in the dark
the heat burning in my head
couldn't think of anything except you
the picture of you were stuck in my mind all the time

i wish you were here beside me.

i wish you would miss me, the way that i miss you.

Concaved

2006-04-05T20:36:00.000+08:00

Concave Scream

A local band.
Good Music.
Nice guitar works.
love it.

emoconfusion

2006-04-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

it's just a step away to End everything
should i? or not?

Hey YOU*, i'm a person who bottles up everything and not let it out. I hope you can feel and tell how i feel towards you.
imissyou.

YOU*

2006-04-04T21:03:00.000+08:00

i thank YOU* for being there for me.

Buddhistson

2006-03-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

Great Band. Nice people.
Check them out.

Along with..

Whence He Came.

Whence He Came.

SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD

2006-03-28T19:07:00.000+08:00

i'm disappointed in myself.

disappointed some of you.

why things always have to turn out like that,

sigh.

My Photo of the Month

2006-03-26T01:54:00.000+08:00

untitled

2006-03-20T22:39:00.000+08:00

I finally bothered to update my blog, just felt like it so suddenly. It's been months since i last logged in.Well, so many things happened in my life for the past few months and i really don't know how to start off.

I gained quite an experience from certain stuff. Met some new friends, great friends i should say. There was a period of time i was really down and depressed, really confused and i felt like ending my life but i thank God he was there for me.
-I hope you guys are doing fine, just give him some time and things will go on smoothly. Maybe it's just my presence that is making the whole thing awkward.

Echo Park is in my hands now! whoohoo. delay delay delay...................

I LOVE MY BOSS

2005-12-08T22:35:00.000+08:00

Just came back from work. damn, really really tired. Last night went zouk with my boss and my colleagues.Boss treated us alot, power.

awww.. tired man.

take care people.

Last?

2005-11-01T00:59:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! I haven't blogged for a PRETTY long time and guess what? I tried to log in but seems that i forgotten my username. Thank God there's Shirleen! She was the one who helped me with it. oh thanks again shirl!

I seldom get the chance to use the computer these days. Life is too busy.. with work and school projects. Really tired. Thank God for what i'm having now.Can't wait to get my hands on the Lomo camera. Especially the FishEye Lense. Whoohoo. RAD.

It's a public holiday tommorow. I'm working, gotta catch some sleep real soon. Take care guys. (=

The terrible Secret

2005-08-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

Emery's new album, The Question. Really good i must say, they added more interesting stuff than their previous album. 4/5 stars.

New Item added to my wishlist, Line6 Echo Park. I might be stepping on that pedal at the end of this month. hopefully.

Car Crashing In My Head

2005-07-26T17:30:00.000+08:00

Last night...
I looked at myself in the mirror.
Next moment..
I Fainted.

My head hit the bed frame really hard.
Within the 10seconds of BLACKOUT.
Felt like i was in a car crashing scene.
Head spinning like mad.

I thought i was dead already.
Woke up and i saw my whole family faces above me.

Now, i feel so weak and lethargic.
I think i have to change my lifestyle.
No more late nights....

Good Bye

2005-07-20T18:50:00.000+08:00

Did you have to go?
why won't you stay?
...

Did you have to go..
so suddenly..

don't leave me..
sigh.

just simply slip out of my hand.

2005-07-19T19:05:00.000+08:00

Sigh, i just can't understand myself. I was so close at that moment..things were going smoothly at that time. I did something so stupid that screwed up everything between 'US'. I'm pretty disappointed in myself.

Here's A Scenario:
Just imagine you went fishing one day, you waited for hours and suddenly you caught a really beautiful and big fish. But silly you, you didn't tightened the string and it snapped. The fish swam away. How would you feel?

..sigh.

leave me alone.

Chill Out Night

2005-07-09T04:25:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys, for the lack of updates. I'm like really tired now, just came home. Had dinner at Arab Street with the Band after jammin.The food was good man, it's been awhile since we last hung out till early morning.

Well, thanks guys for your advises. I really aprreciate it, give me some time and i'll get over every shit i'm going through now. *To the band, I think it's time to add in some new elements, As I Lay Dying! Zach, I really liked it when you RUN with the Double Pedals.

Cy, i can't feel the same about you anymore.

deep down

2005-07-01T18:29:00.000+08:00

I missed you.
Nice knowing you.
I had fun hanging out with you.
All the crappy jokes and all.

I know this is the end, i can't get any further.
But i want you to always stay happy.

As for me..
....................
...
...

Dead tired

2005-06-24T00:23:00.000+08:00

i'm getting sick of school, long hours of class each day. damn it i hate this term seriously. By the way, so many bands launch their latest albums.. i just have to get Foo Fighters album, 2 CDS. Number One Gun and Coldplay too!

As for her, i don't know what's happening now. I'm confused actually. I can't understand what's running up her mind, weird.

I'm shifting house soon, west coast cres. I guess West Coast Park Mac gonna be my usual chill out area.

Recently, saw quite afew Modified/Stock TWs around Singapore, especially carparks at orchard area. That's so cool, the Japanese bikes are still surviving though it's a 10 years bike.

Gigs are coming up soon, Baybeats? Sonic-Edge Festival? Choose? I would rather go to Sonic-Edge Festival 2005. It's more happening there, Baybeats is free so i guess i'll just stop by to watch some *CAN MAKE IT* bands set. Currently listening to NumberOneGun - Promises For The Imperfect. The album
is not out yet but i managed to get it from........ *laughs.

Awesome

2005-06-13T04:09:00.000+08:00

isn't it awkward to update my blog at this hour. haha. I just can't sleep.
anyway, enjoyed my weekends with YOU,really. Believe God sent YOU* to me. I'm starting to miss YOU* already.

Have to go now.

work work work

2005-05-26T03:11:00.000+08:00

work is so tiring, just came back home. i need some rest.

Which is Hotter?

2005-05-20T12:11:00.000+08:00

Anyway....

2005-05-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

say HI to STILL BREATHING, ZAO, LIVING SACRIFICE and EXTOL. I'm listening to CHRISTIAN METAL again! whoohoo. SCREAM praises to HIM.

Look to you

2005-05-17T22:42:00.000+08:00

Oh man, just had my minor examination today. yes, there's such thing. The weather is pretty cool and chilly the whole day. Liked it when i blast Hillsong's music into my ears as i walk home. It's wednesday in afew hours time.. that's quick. Having a job interview tmr in the afternoon, God will bless me.

Sorry Lord for my sinful thoughts.
I know you will forgive me and i love you.
I'll sing praises to you all night.

I lay my life down at your feet
You're the only one I need
I turn to you and you are always there

In troubled times its you I seek
I put you first thats all I need
I humble all I am, All to you

One way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
One Way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for

You are always, always there
Every how and everywhere
Your grace abounds so deeply within me

You wil never ever change
Yesterday today the same
Forever till forever meets no end

You are the way the truth and the life
We live by faith and not by sight ... for you
We're living all for you

Find a way

2005-05-16T20:27:00.000+08:00

Do you know that I still think about you?

Even though I know that it's too late.

Do you know that I'm still missing you?
Especially right now you're far away.
There's no need to for you to tell me that; "I'm sorry",
There's no need for you to tell me that I'm sorry,
I said I'm sorry, I said I'm sorry...

I've got to find a way to stop you falling into my mind
I've got to find a way to keep myself from thinking of you
I've got to find a way to stop you falling into my mind
I've got to find a way to keep myself from thinking...

Find A Way by Plainsunset.

Epilogue

2005-05-15T00:41:00.000+08:00

nothing to.
turn to.
except.
death?

23

2005-05-14T21:59:00.000+08:00

my mind.
spinning.
like a roller coaster.
getting worse.
each. night.
why?
are you.
running away.
from me.

been a week.
since i talked to.
you.

sleepless nights.
felt a.
presence.
in my.
coffin.

dyin.
soon.
doesn't matter.
to you.
i'm sure.

tears.
flowing.
down.

i thought.
i was.
about to.
reach you.
why?
fucked up.

alcohol. please.

2005-05-11T18:41:00.000+08:00

The promise that she made
Left broken on the floor
The bruise left round your heart
Left you begging for more

THANK YOU for making me
WORTHLESS in your eyes
In hope and desperation
I'll find my only light
In your white wedding dress

THANK YOU for making this
THE BEST DAY of my life
In hope and desperation
I'll find my only light

And in everything I've seen
I am open to everything
And time will, will take us all and
Drown us in it's wake
And clearly I will stay and wipe the blood from
Your white wedding dress

.i got a new hobby man. Using LW PRO to download many many many emocore bands LIVE VIDS. WOOHOO.

2005-05-08T23:56:00.000+08:00

i m u .. `lrihs

Changing Of Times

2005-05-07T00:31:00.000+08:00

never expected it to arrive so soon
but as the night drifted on
it came time to say goodbye
turning your back and walking away
this cold winter morning is all that remains
why couldn't you tell me to my face
instead of hiding until i lost faith
a heart gets broken as a life gets set free
and all i asked was love me
years passed, seasons changed and i waited
soon after was the pain
that would never reach you
you've gotten over me
but it seems i'll never get over you
on me i place this blame
regrets
praying heaven will open wide
and hold you tight
as for me, i'll be alright
this impact you would have
the songs i'd write
dreams or you changing your mind
anything to pass the time
but for now
i hope you can hear me as i cry
i love you and goodbye

Still waiting

2005-05-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! So sorry for the lack of updates, hahah. Honestly, i'm lazy. Exams are coming, forcing myself to catch up with the rest. arghhhr. The weather is damn bloody *COLD*.. man.. i need a jacket whenever i step out of the house. I hope channel5 is still screening this show called Scared Tactics later on at 1am, it's damn hilarious i tell yah.

The band is quite inactive these few days. Everyone's busy i guess.. sigh. Our schedule are so tight that we can't even meet up and have a cup of coffee. I miss those days...
Looking for a mod-Ts9, $$$$$. Electro-harmonix strings are good! Love it! Should have bought more on that day! Lets hope it doesn't run out of stocks!

*YOU. Glad that i'm closer to you now.

I'll still be waiting......

The Everglow

2005-03-26T02:28:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, sorry for not updating for weeks. I just couldn't be bothered logging in. Life's great.. ups and downs. So many good bands have launch their brilliant albums, bands like Mae, U2 and United Live. My favourite pick would be MAE. Their album The Everglow is fantastic! It's a must to listen to them!

Currently listening to: (albums)

Mae - The Everglow
U2 - How to dismantle An Atomic Bomb
United Live - Look to you
Tortoise - It's all around you
The Observatory - Time of Rebirth